This tugging in my heart, the myriads and compounding feelings that I have right now is simple overwhelming.

Think with your mind, and not with your heart; there is a saying.

But at this instance, in this moment of time, the reflections of the substance between us is just so real, so intricate. How can I choose to ignore that?

I can't.

But it's better to face it now than to keep matters in the shades.

On my part, I feel like a rat. That much I can tell you.

It pains me more than it ever did before. It really does.

But I refuse to give up. or in.

Oh, Lord.